look around

I feel something missing ,

I am not trying to act like a lil goody goody here .
I had a conversation on the phone with Jingyi earlier , and this would happen like so rarely these days . Hahahaha , it becomes funny when she starts whining on the phone and screaming her head off . I miss those days . It feels weird as to see her in some of the pictures uploaded in my computer and some in my handphone that were left untouched by the DUs which days we spent as a RANDOM FAMILY . It has been long since she went along with us , laughing and crapping around , going and travelling around . Right now , I see her being lonely . Though she detested other races , became racist after the influence of Mr Poh for which she claims so , she's been with them , I pity her . It has been like that since that incident , and after some horrid days , the DUs weren't in good terms with her . Gah , blog fights , .. Spamming of tagboards , .. Everything .. Anything to let the opposing party feel hatred towards the other . I'd really hope this would end , let everything be . I'd hope no one would doubt that . And I would hope she'd change for the better . I realised that it's no use insulting her like that .

People makes mistakes . All she needed was another chance .

i miss everything .

I haven't been going online so often these days .
I miss doing what I normally do .

I have my own reasons .
I want to spend more of my time going out , doing what i can ..
but I can't .
I can't help it but to just keep them shut .
I feel so helpless as to only rest .
I can't do much these days .

The corneal on the right is torn and it hurts .
he said I am so close to 'game over' .

help .

hello , HELLO ! [:

omg , I enjoy my days just doing nothing .
so yeah , yesterday , I went to deyi sec to learn the basics of marching from an expert .
haha .
like so ohmygod , I WAS MARCHING IN THE SUN , IN THE FIELD AGAIN .
ooooooh , I miss those days ..

Sadly , my eyes couldn't take it , so I was tearing all the way .
Yeah , poor me .
So now , after a few hours of marching in the sun ,
I turned a lil black again . LOL .
I didn't really notice it till Raimov told me about it , haha .

so yeah , I'm still alive .
till then . :D

Like seriously , I enjoy being at home .
Unlike at the KL trip , I can sleep all I want .
So , obviously , I'm back from the trip .
I had a really really good night sleep that I ended up sleeping up till 5pm . I'm still tired . hahahhaaaa ..

So yeah , the bus ride was horrible .

day 1 , in the bus , I was WIDE awake , laughed and talked all the way .
day 2 , slept , talked , laughed , crap-ed .
day 3 , freaking tired that I slept so soundly and people had to wake me up . -.-
I wonder what if there's day 4 , or maybe 5 ..

I think i would already be dead . The trip drains my energy ..
LONG random naps are ALWAYS an issue , haha .

The trip was great . Just great . hahaha , I love my group .
Thanks for everything .

hello .

If anyone of you happen to notice that there's a " charlotte "
spamming your tagboards , incluiding mine , that's not me .
I'm so not disgusting as to say all these stuff .

Well , thanks for using my name ,
it only shows that you love my name so much , that you go around
using my name , spamming people and saying what you
yourself do or maybe want to do .
you must be really out of your mind .

I hate you luh ,
just that I have to find out if it's really you .
I'm not an unreasonable person .
and if you're the one spamming , get a life .
blog spamming is like oh-so-long ago .
-.-
i'm so disapppointed with you .

Hallelujah ! (:

So , basically , yesterday , I went to church with Jingyi , Penglin , Yilian and some other people from other schools who were absolutely nice . [:
Somehow , we ended up in a auditorium . The audience were in high sprits .
Some clapped as the music was being played and there were even people dancing along . I felt totally odd as I saw people jumping , .. and jumping ..
Truthfully speaking , I wasn't as engrossed as how they were into god .
LOLS . X:

haha , ...
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well , so , .. heh .. there's band practice tomorrow ..
and I've got a feeling I'm going to hate it .
I don't know why , but I just feel so . Haha .

I was totally drained during the last practice .
During the last practice , after some decision making ,
I suddenly felt like I was so naive .
Right now I feel that I lack of confidence
and I have a low self-esteem .

gah , I suck .

with no hesitation

When I update , it only shows that I have absolutely nothing do .

Like now , I am alone at home . Great . Just great .
No entertainers , only me . How boring today .
So far , I've spend the holidays having lots of fun .
Entertainers are everywhere , haha .

Yesterday , another day without Jacq .
How boring . Well , I guess she's coming back soon ? Or maybe not .
I'll just hope she comes back soon [:
It suxs being in a group with two dumb guys and being the only girl .
-.-

I feel so naive these days .

heyhey . (:

happy birthday to my evil senior , fakhrina ,
who is always so mean, haha .

there was a class barbeque yesterday ,
it didn't turn out perfectly well but , ..
gah , it was great for the first time that a class 101 from 2008 had .

firstly , no games were played . [:
no one wanted to coperate . (: hehe
secondly , no forfeits .
and lastly , it rained . how wonderful . yeah , wonderful in the opposite way :D
but this isn't the issue . I had fun , that's all it's about , haha .

poor Jacqueline .
fainted during the last band practice and , oh ,
somehow got her teeth or gums stuck with her braces .
awww , that must hurt a lot .
get well soon yeah . (: I'd hope you'd be able to go the KL trip .

Everyone's disappointed in you , yet you don't want to admit your mistake . You don't get it , do you ? You've lied way too much to each and every one of us . I hate . I don't trust you , not anymore . I don't care whether you're telling the truth or whatsoever . Stop mocking people and speak about how bad their attitude is when you're no better then them . Act innocent ? You're not , oh-kay? well , we're just acting along , like as if we pity you . We know you can't be trusted anymore . Stop whining . Stop complaining . Stop wanting to get attention from people around you . We would appreciate that . We'd hope you would change , it's not like we will never forgive you and hate you forever . Do change .